Learning is fun but it also can be humiliating, defeating, and humbling. Today was a day when the gears of my brain were constantly grinding as my preceptor quizzed me extensively about ventilator parameters and proper procedures for various tasks. He required me to answer quickly and use my critical thinking skills, but I often stumbled over the barriers of inexperience and felt my confidence slipping away.
I left the hospital in tears tonight feeling mentally exhausted and overwhelmed with the entire responsibility. As much as I want to be done with school there is a part of me that fears losing the safety net of being able to say, "I'm a student". No more easy excuse for why I screwed up, and really there is no margin for error when there is someones life at risk. No pressure there huh?
Tomorrow I do it all over again, and I'm sure I will stumble many more times, but I will pick myself up, try to toughen up, and just keep going. I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!
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you can do it your just have to stay strong and not let them get you down your still learning and you will get the hang out making decisions on your own, just be patient it will all come to you and click and then the pieces will all fit.
YES, YOU CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE, MOM
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