Billy's Home

After two months of being separated Billy and I are finally back together. This morning the door bell rang and I looked out the window and there he was smiling and waving at me. I couldn't believe it - I thought for sure he wouldn't be back for a couple more weeks. What a relief to not be alone in this house anymore. After he was here for about half an hour it finally hit me just how much weight I felt I was bearing, and I broke down in tears. Sure, I was doing it all alone and I could continue to do it alone, but that's not how it's suppose to be - he is supposed to be here beside me feeling just as miserable. :0)
His only disappointment in coming home was that I had the cable disconnected - there is no TV. That's fine for me because all I do is study so I don't watch TV, but he loves the golf station and of course the Yankee games. Poor man!
Today was good - we actually watched a movie together, ran a couple errands and then ate dinner with Josh and Nicole. I loved it and the biggest piece missing in my life is back in it's place. Right beside me - it's been a good day.

Not over YET??????

Tomorrow I return, once again, to classes after completing my final clinical rotation. This rotation was difficult and I wasn't sad to see it end. Last week I attended a seminar that is supposed to help me pass the board exams. It was a long exhausting three days, but very educational. Now only five weeks left and I will be DONE!!! Four long years of education will be over - but, now the true learning will begin. I'm not exactly sure how I am feeling - it doesn't seem real that I will no longer be attending school. It's what I do now - study and go to class. For four years my life has been structured around education, and I have been so focused on my goal that I haven't seen much of the world around me. I actually have been submerged in a whole different world that has left me feeling isolated from all that I knew. It hasn't been bad - I just feel as if I need to re-create myself. So on August 14th I will purge myself of my very ugly navy blue scrubs and become reacquainted with myself.